
Who could have imagined that sunny California would be overcast and chilly the entire week my family traveled to Ohio without me? The gloomy weather seems to fuel the grayness of my spirit this week. I miss my family terribly; I don’t do well on my own. Luckily I’ll be joining them by week’s end. The last I saw them, curbside at LAX, Julie and I kissed as she collected the multiple bags she had to wheel inside. Sophie gave me the grandest hug, not wanting to say goodbye. With mixed emotions she let go. Jacob, wearing his crushed and crooked Dodgers cap, asked, “Daddy, will you tell me if the Indians won?” I replied, “Jake, you’ll be in Cleveland. You can tell me if the Indians won.” Earlier that morning he asked me to wear my baseball hat when I flew into Northeast Ohio. “My Indians hat?” “No, Daddy, your Dodgers hat.” As a diehard Indians fan, flying into Cleveland wearing anything other that a Tribe hat seemed improbable.
They left, I drove away, and soon thereafter the loneliness set in. No one ever tells you how empty you feel when your wife and kids are away or how it can screw with your rhythms. When vacations approach and I know I’ll be home alone, I imagine using the free time to write or catch up on the movies I missed. Yet I find it difficult finding the energy to get started; without the family around I’m uninspired. A slug. (more…)


