I really tried to get this up by Halloween, but it took quite a bit of work, i.e. rummaging through old VHS tapes, then some encoding, blah blah. So just pretend itÁ¢€â„¢s 24 hours ago for maximum effectÁ¢€¦

For a few years on the early-to-mid Á¢€Ëœ80s, each Halloween evening would see MTV break their normal playlist format to spotlight Á¢€Å“spookyÁ¢€, Á¢€Å“scaryÁ¢€ or Á¢€Å“creepyÁ¢€ videos. This would be just about the only time of the year youÁ¢€â„¢d see Blue Oyster CultÁ¢€â„¢s Á¢€Å“GodzillaÁ¢€ (why youÁ¢€â„¢d want to is beyond me) or Edgar Winter Jr.Á¢€â„¢s Á¢€Å“Frankenstein 1984Á¢€ (seriously).

While IÁ¢€â„¢m not much of a horror fan, I would make it a point to try to record or see some of this marathon each year because I knew they would play one video IÁ¢€â„¢d never get to see otherwise Á¢€” Á¢€Å“Something Inside Me Has DiedÁ¢€ by an L.A.-based goth band called Kommunity FK.

Kommunity FK was basically vocalist/guitarist Patrick Mata, drummer Matt Chaikin and a revolving door of support musicians who tended not to stick around very long. Their 1983 debut album Á¢€Å“The Vision and the VoiceÁ¢€, besides being nearly impossible to find, is quite good Á¢€” thereÁ¢€â„¢s more going on here than just droning gloom. Lots of Joy Division creeps into the mix and there are hooks aplenty. However, their 1985 album Á¢€Å“Close One Sad EyeÁ¢€ is really their jewel Á¢€” the hooks remain, but the production seems to be more up to the task. Everything is crystal clear and IÁ¢€â„¢ll be damned if that bass isnÁ¢€â„¢t downright funky at times Á¢€” not quite what you expect from a goth band.

Á¢€Å“Something Inside Me Has DiedÁ¢€, woeful title aside, is basically a bouncy little new wave-ish number and quite possibly, next to BauhausÁ¢€â„¢ overplayed Á¢€Å“Bela LugosiÁ¢€â„¢s DeadÁ¢€, one of the most fully realized goth rock songs ever. MataÁ¢€â„¢s voice is fantastic, the synth drones in the background and when the guitar screeches and Mata yelps Á¢€Å“DIIIIIIIIEEED!Á¢€ youÁ¢€â„¢re right there with him.

The video was a combination of truly atmospheric and downright hilarious. There are some well-composed shots in beautiful black and white and some of the sets are quite effective and moody. I know goth is dress up and all, but get ready to see some serious hair violations and lots of Á¢€Å“IÁ¢€â„¢m DYING INSIDEÁ¢€ eyerolls to the back of the head. Keep in mind, however, that when youÁ¢€â„¢re 16 years old in 1985, you take this shit seriously. At least I did enough to make sure I kept it on tape for 20 years.

Download Á¢€Å“Something Inside Me Has DiedÁ¢€.

Watch the video.

Visit Kommunity FK online (theyÁ¢€â„¢re still touring!).

Amazon has the first Kommunity FK CD in print and used copies of “Close One Sad Eye” (but prepare to pay for it).

Á¢€Something Inside Me Has DiedÁ¢€ did not chart.

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John C. Hughes

John C. Hughes began his Lost in the ’80s blog in 2005 and is now proud to be a member of the Popdose family, where he’s introduced LIT80s’s companions, the obviously named Lost in the ’70s and Lost in the ’90s, alongside the slightly more originally named Why You Should Like…

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